In the last few weeks, through another exhausting move, being sick multiple times, and dealing with the disappointment of a slow-moving business at the beginning of the year, I have been re-evaluating myself as a person and as a writer.And I finally saw me. For far too long, I've been trying to be someone else in my writing, in my life, even in my own thoughts. Not anyone in particular. Just anyone but me. I scared myself. I didn't know how to deal with the person that was me. And if I couldn't deal with me, who could?
These reflections started as I was writing to a client. In the midst of trying to be impressive in a sentence about my work habits, I suddenly found myself very tired. (It's exhausting trying not to be yourself.) And it got me thinking.
The moment I decided to forget trying to be some pie-in-the-sky version of Jessica and just start being me, I couldn't stand looking at all the remnants of the half-me's. I have spent the last two weeks re-writing all my freelance materials, designing a new website for my freelancing (which you can see right here), and replacing anything that didn't truly represent me.
As you can see, Visions got in on the early spring cleaning, as well. It just felt time for a change. And this new look is very much in line with who I am. (With this new look will come regular blog posts, too - yay!)
How about you, dear readers? Are you embracing the real you today?
Jess,
ReplyDeleteWhat a thought-provoking post. Way to go... I'm proud of you. I, too, spent far longer than I should have trying to be what everybody else in the world thought I should be (or at least what *I* thought they thought I should be). It doesn't work. God made us to be US and I'm sure He's happy that you've decided to admit to being the wonderful YOU that you are.
Blessings,
Deb