13 April, 2012
A to Z Challenge: L is for Letting Go
When I write, I tense up inside. Before the words ever hit the page, I'm wondering if anyone will like it.
"Will they think I'm stupid?"
"Surely that will be obviously juvenile to anyone who reads it."
"I might as well hang a sign around my neck that says, 'I can't write but I think I can' because that's what this sentence says about me."
I think these things because a warped logic tells me that thinking them will only only the good stuff to come out on paper.
As beneficial as this may seem in my head, it's not. In fact, after thinking these things, I'm more likely to go have a good cry over my terribleness as a writer than to dig in and "fix" my stupidity. And, if I do force myself to write after that kind of torture, my writing sounds just like I thought it would.
I have to learn to let go - of myself, of other people, of comparisons. Once I let go, the writing flows.
When I don't worry, the writing is fine. When I speak from my heart, it is good, coherent, even enjoyable. When I worry, everything falls apart.
I'm working at letting go on a regular basis. And it's not a bad idea for my life as well as my writing.
What about you? Is there something you need to let go of?
Reminder: tomorrow is Saturday, so I need your suggestions for a flash fiction! The letter is M and the rules are here. Fire away in the comments!