26 September, 2014

Finding My Writer's Voice

From the moment I began my first blog years ago, I have written what I thought everyone else wanted to read. I thought my ideas were not good enough, funny enough, or sensational enough to warrant publicizing. This became especially true once I started this writing blog. I spent all my time worrying about the engagement of my posts, the number of my followers, and the content of other writing blogs with thousands of readers who were obviously much more interesting than me.

It was exhausting and I was miserable. What's worse is that my attitude of not being good enough as myself was nothing new - it has affected my blogs and tweets, my novels and short stories, and even my private journals.

So, I stopped writing online. Then I stopped tweeting and Facebook posting. I withdrew and soon found that I wasn't interested in my stories, either. I ceased writing emails and letters. Even my journals were suspect. I wondered if I wanted to keep writing. Really, deeply, soul-searchingly wondered.

The answer was - finally - 'yes.'  I picked up my dusty manuscripts and headed straight back to my critique group. Might as well jump right in, right?

That first night back, one of the writers ripped me out of the last of my writer's lethargy with a scathing critique. The story was a favorite of mine and the critique shredded it to pieces. From the "archaic" terms that no one in this day and age would like to the fact that it was a short story and not a novel, the other writer pulled it apart.

And something in me rebelled.

I understood my story. I liked it. I didn't want it modern and could care less that "no one" would read it because of its old-fashioned terminology. That was my style. My passion. My heart. There was nothing wrong with it technically, just stylistically. So why was I listening to someone else's vision? Why not my own?

It didn't really happen overnight but that little personal rebellion spread and I began to write with my own visions of other worlds. The pieces I've written with my own thoughts in my own head have become the published and/or praised ones. Trying to fit into something that wasn't me made my writing dull and boring. I don't care if it's old school writing - that's what I love reading. That's what I write. And that is what I will write, from stories to blogs to letters, even if my audience remains small because of it. This is me.

I've communicated with a lot of other writers on this blog, along with those who just love a good tale without the need to create it.  If any of this strikes a chord with you, I want you to remember to be yourself. Seriously. I know everyone says it but we don't often think and less often believe it.
We need to. Originality needs that playful, passionate, purposeful embrace of individuality to survive.


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  1. *high five* Go Jessica!

    I have been secretly delighted at the changes happening to this blog and I'm so glad you're finding more of your voice. Those unique parts of you that have shone through are what initially attracted me to this blog. You are awesome and I was happy to stick it out and wait for your return.

    R.A. Salvatore said "If you can quit, then quit. If you can't quit, you're a writer." Sounds like you found out the truth. :)

    I'm glad to have you back again but of course encourage you to write when you have something to say. I'll be listening.

    1. I'm so happy you stuck through it, Lauren! I love your writing, as well, and your opinion means a lot when it comes to my stories. You've asked more than one question that has made me go back and reconsider a piece.

  2. My rule of thumb is: if it's too uniquely-styled for markets to buy, I can always throw it on my blog, so why not write it? Time is the only issue, but that really just affects what order I write the many stories I would like to write in.

    1. I agree. Why not? If your point is to get read, go for it.

  3. Congrats for figuring this out. I generally write what I want, but I'm still working on what to include in my blog, etc. You know the acronym, BICHOK? Butt in Chair, Hands on Keyboard? There's another one I like better: BICHOP. Butt in Chair, Heart on Page. If your heart isn't in it, don't write it!

    1. Ha, I like that new acronym! Keep searching for blog topics - eventually, it will come to you. Look how long it took me. :)


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